About Me

Well my life has changed alot in the last couple of weeks and now my time is spent hanging out with my new best friend!!! She is a chocolate lab and is 9 weeks old...her name is snickers(lizzy came up with that one)...other than that I am staying strong and enjoying being sober!!!

Monday, June 30, 2008

Good Morning!!!

THANK YOU GOD FOR ANOTHER DAY OF SOBERNESS BEHIND ME AND FOR THE BEGINNING OF A NEW ONE!!!
Last night I went to an AA meeting and I relized something...I am not the only one who is powerless over alcohol!!! I knew I was an alcoholic going into the meeting but I thought that I would be above all the rest of the people there because it would be a room full of people who needed alcohol...you know the people you think of when you here the word alcoholic...the ones who shake if they dont have a drink or that go to the bar everday at noon and never leave but it was nothing like that...I found that a majority were like me with the fact that they would just frink for fun but once they had that first beer they were powerless...it helped me alot in understanding that I was using that as my higher power because I was powerless over it...your whole life you are taught to be independent from your parents and teachers...they are getting you ready for the real world and for me that means doing things on your own...so I would tell myself that I could fix this problem on my own...people told me I couldnt do it by myself but those were the same people that were trying to make me independent so in my mind they were contrdicting themselves and I wanted to prove them wrong...but they were right and it took me loosing more than I ever wanted to to realize it!!! Thank you to all who have not given up on me and for those who have I completely understand...If I was bringing you down I apologize and you are a better person for getting away and bettering yourself!!!

2 comments:

Robin said...

I am so proud of you! This is not an easy road but with God beside you, you will prevail! It is important to become independent from your parents, but never from God. No one can succeed in the end without him. We are all sinners and none of us can ever be worthy enough. Through Christ alone, we can stand tall and face our enemies! Remember the story of David. When his eyes were on God, he succeeded. When he looked to man (or to his own power), he failed miserably. I love you tons!

Lisa said...

Billy,
As we travel this path of life God gives us the freedom to make our own choices. Yes, we are indepented from our parents but this is when we become depented on God. I'm praying for you.
I have always loved you as my own and will always.
love you lots, Aunt Lisa